I don’t know these people who liked and re-blogged my first entry, but this is amazing. Just amazing! God is amazing. :)
Gone Baby Gone
Our English professor made us watch a movie titled Gone Baby Gone today. Before he hit the play button, he warned us that there are foul languages and that the movie is intense. Our final exam is based on this film, but he told us that if we are not comfortable hearing those foul languages, he can give us other option which is reading a certain article. When he said, “you are free to leave if you want” in front of the class, I felt that he was referring to me since he knows that I live my life for God.
I stayed and watched the movie. Good thing I didn’t leave because it was really nice! (well, just don’t mind those foul languages! LOL) I recommend you to watch it. The ending part is the “catchy” one for me. Watch it! I bet you’ll like it. ;)
Q:Awesome blog. God Bless.
Are you sure? I’m not that good at writing (or blogging) but thanks! God bless you! :)
These Thoughts
Many people asked me why do I need to go back to the Philippines for I am already here in United States where most people want to go. Honestly, I don’t really want to go back, but I can’t do anything if that is the will of God for my life. I keep on accepting this going-to-be situation because I can’t control it. Perhaps, I can do a “way” for me to stay here which is by marrying a citizen or resident; however, that is not the pleasing will of the LORD but “my” will.
Before I came here, I thought I could live here forever though I came here as an international student. Things changed, and while I was living in the world and for the world, God saved me. Thank You, LORD! So yeah, things changed, and now, I just want to live in His world and for Him.
As an international student, I chose to study well even it’s not the real purpose of me going here. That’s me of being a good student for 2 years.
I’m 25 years old now and still studying. I don’t mind studying, but if I study just to stay here, that’s not cool. It’s expensive and no 100% chance of getting a job since the economy is under recession. Besides, I already achieved a degree (BS-Economics) in the Philippines! I need to find a job now for time flies so fast.
The I-can’t-find-job-here (or not having an employer to sponsor me) reason is not the only reason why I need to go back to my country. The Holy Spirit convicted me that I need to go home and proclaim the Gospel to my family, relatives, friends, neighbors, etc. Most of them do not know about salvation yet. The more I ignore this conviction, the more it grows. Well, I don’t know if this is real, but I feel that this is what God is telling me.
I feel sad yet hopeful to say that it’s okay if I give up this American dream as long as I will see the people I love in Heaven. I choose Heaven than America. Heaven is eternal, and this is the place where God is.
I’m sad for now, but I know this is just temporary. Therefore, I shall rejoice!
Part of me is saying this: “Dang! Are you sure you want to go home? United States is such a beautiful place!” and this: “People will think negative about this for only stupid people can do this.” I always think that God is enough for my life, so to end these foolish thoughts, I must focus on God. (Hey there, LORD! ^^)
I must better give myself a verse to reflect:
And calling the crowd to him with his disciples, he said to them, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. -Mark 8:34
Self, die now! Well, I can’t do this all by myself but God can, so from the lyrics of one of my favorite songs, (You Alone by Casting Pearls) “remove myself til there’s nothing left but You alone in me,” oh LORD.
Now, I’m determined to go back, but I’m still wishing that God will do a way for me to stay here. If not, then let Thy will be done.
I wasn’t expectin’
But who am I to tell fate where it’s supposed to go with it
Don’t you blink, you might miss it
See, we got a right to just love it or leave it, you find it and keep it
Cause it ain’t everyday you get the chance ..
